oh shit.

dear ex,

you RUINED me. you took every single ounce of life I had left in me and you CRUSHED it. you made me feel like I was worth something for a couple months, and then you made me feel JUST THE SAME WAY i did before. You couldn’t take the fact that I LOVED you. You couldn’t do that. You also couldn’t take my addictions, and my condition, which I guess I don’t blame you for… but come on, could you have LESS cooperation with me? all I did was be the nicest human being in the world to you, and put up with all of your shit. and I knew that our friendship was going down hill on those last few months… but I stayed with you because I NEEDED YOU. and after all that happened, you just text me out of no where and say that you need to talk to me. … I spent so long trying to get you out of my mind and get you out of my head, and to just FORGET about you… and then that fucking happens. and then you KISSED ME? I kissed you back, I guess… but … I still love you. I’ve tried so hard to hate you. I wish I hated you. … god… I just wish I could hate you. You make me feel like shit every second of my life… and I don’t know how much longer I can take it. But whatever… it’s all about you I guess. You said you changed… but you’re still the douche bag kid you were a year ago.

OHHHHHHHHHHH 

clever;)

so there’s this guy i know. and his name’s darren criss…. and i love him. lol.